Will I remember this morning and all of its non-silence? The birds, the hum of traffic in the distance, the dripping of the water condensing on everything?
Will I remember the cool humidity? The way the air felt heavy and full of nourishment with all of its spring-time scent and moisture?
Will I remember the cool, calm tranquility of this moment when life gets fiery and intense?
I trust many parts of myself will remember.
Will I be able to reconnect and transport myself back to this sense of well-being? To know wholeheartedly that this moment was real and the sensations can be real again?
Or will it fill me with longing and resentment? Will it fill me with disillusionment to know that the peace I felt in this moment will be peace never experienced in this exact way, under these exact conditions and circumstances ever again?
Will I ever be able to release, like this, into any version of the present moment as it presents?
The conditions shouldn’t matter, but it’s so easy to feel well-being when my particle and potential are aligned with the current environment and circumstances.
Will I ever find a way to expand my tolerance for other conditions and circumstances so that I can connect to these feelings of peace in those present moments as well?
Will I remember?
