Our dining room is a mess... An honest-to-goodness disaster area. I hate it. I hate sitting in it. I don't feel at home eating in it. I hate looking at it. I hate the energy I feel from it. I was journaling the other day, like I do. Every single day I try to write … Continue reading The Dining Room.
Month: May 2021
Sleep.
Life hasn't been smooth-sailing lately. I have been quietly wading through a trough in my depression/anxiety experience these past few weeks. I'm grateful for recovering, however slowly. I'm also extremely grateful for the new insights I've had this time around. It's amazing what a look at the basics will yield... a good honest look at … Continue reading Sleep.
Perfect.
There are some moments that, no matter what you try, will never be perfect. The plans just don't and won't work out. In every moment we have the choice to sink into suffering about how imperfect things are or we can move gently despite the challenges. We are able to choose the thoughts in our … Continue reading Perfect.
Dawn.
It is a new day and I am grateful. For every challenging day I have, I know that a good rest and a new dawn follow. It may not be a better day, but it is different and I know I am also different. Growth happens during rest and I feel that I have more … Continue reading Dawn.
Save Yourself.
Save a part of yourself for yourself. Always. You don't have to give every single ounce of yourself away. I once lived under the delusion that I owed everybody everything. I gave 1000% of my effort, energy, and attention to everything because I thought I was only as good as what I gave to the … Continue reading Save Yourself.
The New Moon.
I've started paying attention to the Moon Phases in the past couple of years. It's amazing what a difference tracking the Moon makes when you look at cycles of energy expansion and contraction. The idea is that in the time between the New Moon and the Full Moon, energy expands as the Moon waxes, and … Continue reading The New Moon.
Go Gently.
Move mindfully. Breathe. Deeply. Ground down. Root. Securely. Release slowly. Feel. Intensely. Move as mindfully into your day as possible with deep breaths and deep intention. Ground down into yourself and root securely into your awareness. Slowly release everything that needs to be acknowledged and hold gentle attention on your precious self. It is all … Continue reading Go Gently.
Doubt.
"How can I share my gifts with the world? *Live my experience and write.* Spin, spin, spin. "I'm not a writer." Spin, spin, spin. "I'm a terrible example of how to live a successful life." Spin, spin, spin. "Maybe this means I need to..." Spin, spin, spin... *The fact that this is being pondered so … Continue reading Doubt.
Feel No Evil.
I am the Queen of Avoidance. I say this not as a brag or a proclamation of my greatness, but as a description of the hereditary and culturally upheld nature of this trait. When I was growing up, there was a familiar refrain "ignore it and it will go away." Variations of this included "don't … Continue reading Feel No Evil.
Are You Paying Attention?
Sometimes inspiration strikes hard. Sometimes it's a small whisper. Today it was a slap in the face. *Pay attention to me. Paint this.* I was walking on my favourite forest path and it felt like I could hear everything. Every bird song. Every small critter rustling in the grass. Every snap of a twig. Every … Continue reading Are You Paying Attention?