Gifts are something I desire to spend more time contemplating. I want to get gifts that are special and aligned with the aspirations and desires of the recipient. I feel like Christmas, Birthday, and other presents should support who the recipient wants to be as they move into a new calendar year or year of … Continue reading Conscious Gifting.
Water. I'm struggling to think expansively about what I desire today. Unconditional Love feels difficult. I'm repeating old memories and I'm actually not even sure they're memories or loud thoughts that over time have taken on the status of memories. It's a bit disappointing when I'm trying to shift my Awareness towards what I desire, … Continue reading Elixirs.
All desires are seeds that we plant with one of two things: Deliberate awareness of what we would like to happen, or with the unexamined patterns of our day-to-day lives. Do you like where you're at and what surrounds you in this present moment? You might be! But if you're at all curious about how … Continue reading Seeds.
I feel like there is a difference between self-preservation and fear. Fear is contemplative. It is something that you have time and space to deliberate and is a gradual slide toward dysregulation. There are very real protective mechanisms but what I'm talking about is not that... it's not an instant Fight/Flight/Freeze/Fawn system response. It's a … Continue reading Fear.
“I’m so grateful.”
'I'm so grateful' this morning for my recognition of the fact that I often cut off my inner voice and dysregulation by thinking the bulldozing thought "I'm so grateful." It becomes a way to shift my state temporarily by smashing down any dysregulation. It becomes a way to avoid feeling or working on feeling discomfort, … Continue reading “I’m so grateful.”
A little light. A candle. My body loves the silence that surrounds me. The smell of the candle I chose. The taste of the drink I made. The feeling of the warm clothing I wear in the chill air. The dim and comforting light that comes from a lamp, a candle, and my dimmed screens … Continue reading 3 am.
Sweetest Otto. My dog passed away a month ago. He was 14. I loved (love?) him so much and I don’t feel like anything I could ever say can capture the experience that I had of being his person over the years as accurately as I would like. But I will try because all I … Continue reading Otto.
September is here. School is back on. Autumn is 3 weeks away. This has always been a time of change for me. I've found myself so dysregulated lately, the last week particularly, and I have seen it as another opportunity to explore. Why am I so stressed out? My daughter is going back to school. … Continue reading Changes.
The Fear of Showing up Imperfectly.
I know that there is so much messaging out there about making sure your work is perfectly aligned with your brand and what society is all about, but I would love to just propose that maybe we can all give ourselves the grace to show up imperfectly once in a while and see what happens. … Continue reading The Fear of Showing up Imperfectly.
It is ok to feel peaceful.
That’s it. That’s the message for today. You can feel good. You can feel regulated and full of Awareness and full of the joyful calm that comes from knowing that you are an integral aspect of your Universe. The state of regulated Awareness is in contrast to Survival Ego- which is that panicky place that … Continue reading It is ok to feel peaceful.