I am creating something I can’t comprehend in my mind’s perspective of the senses. Because it doesn’t exist yet. I am creating through feeling: Feelings of delight, mercy, discernment, renewal, harmony, nurturing, and unconditional love. I am the only aspect of this Universe I have any autonomy over and I choose to move through these … Continue reading The Unknown.
Jesus embodies change. Transmutation of the present moment. He healed people, sure, but he inspired countless others to consider their reality. To think about what they and others were doing and the impact it had on others still and the world surrounding them. The Universe and its perceptible elements of a situation, not stories or … Continue reading Once you see, you cannot unsee- Ponderings about Jesus.
This view. It was priceless. It was expensive. It cost me a lot to create this picture of this present moment. It cost me the time to walk. It cost me every decision I made in order to curate a lifestyle that celebrates movement- from how I rest up, to how I fuel activities, and … Continue reading Priceless.
What would my Highest Imaginative Self be doing at this present moment?Would she still be sleeping? Meditating? Going for a run? Doing dishes? Or laundry? Or performing a Reiki session? Driving to the mountains? Drinking water? Eating a luxurious breakfast in bed? Swimming? Wandering in nature? Sitting in the dimming light of the sunset? Sitting … Continue reading What I Am Doing.
Where do I feel most comfortably situated? Some will never ask. How does this place, this moment, feel in my body? I find myself asking constantly. I feel the best along the shores of large bodies of water. I feel the worst next to a fire. I feel ethereal upon mountain tops. I feel crushed … Continue reading Elements & Setting.
- I write differently. - I tend to write sentences that are more a statement of my truth rather than points to be argued. - I write sentences as a list that I shift and reorder over and over until it congeals into a cohesive piece. - My sentences are often numbered- but not today. … Continue reading Technique.
I’ve been contemplating Imagination. For many reasons, Spring is when I feel drawn to explore this concept. In the past I have found this framework helpful for my situation and I would like to share it in the hopes that it might help someone else as well. Imagination from a place of Nervous System Regulation … Continue reading Spring Refresh.
I feel like there is a difference between self-preservation and fear. Fear is contemplative. It is something that you have time and space to deliberate and is a gradual slide toward dysregulation. There are very real protective mechanisms but what I'm talking about is not that... it's not an instant Fight/Flight/Freeze/Fawn system response. It's a … Continue reading Fear.
'I'm so grateful' this morning for my recognition of the fact that I often cut off my inner voice and dysregulation by thinking the bulldozing thought "I'm so grateful." It becomes a way to shift my state temporarily by smashing down any dysregulation. It becomes a way to avoid feeling or working on feeling discomfort, … Continue reading “I’m so grateful.”
A little light. A candle. My body loves the silence that surrounds me. The smell of the candle I chose. The taste of the drink I made. The feeling of the warm clothing I wear in the chill air. The dim and comforting light that comes from a lamp, a candle, and my dimmed screens … Continue reading 3 am.