It’s new years eve and I am feeling unprepared.
I feel like I should have done more to set up for this moment of shift into 2024.
I’ve never had a transformative year like 2023 in the past, but I still don’t feel like I’ve done enough to move forward with the care and attention I crave.
What about the dusting and decluttering? What about getting rid of everything I don’t want to take with me into the new year? What about the purging of unsupportive beliefs?
This year has been transformational and I feel for the first time I’ve been discerning and deliberate about what is for me in this experience.
So, what is going on right now? I feel like there is still so much to do…
But this implies that life’s a task to be completed within a set timeframe. However, In my experience I find that tasks rarely ever are finished once and for all. It’s like the tides- higher (more) or lower (less) but ever-present.
So ordering and exploring this life is an ever-present task.
I can shift my belief to this idea. It brings me a sense of calm. I can examine and unravel my mind and realise that the flow through the work actually never ends. Sometimes there’s lots and sometimes a little, but there’s always something that gets dredged up in expected or unexpected moments.
All I can do is learn to roll with it. I find ways to move forward. I learn more about myself.
The new year isn’t a deadline. It’s not a starting point. There’s no grade or reward for being ‘done.’ This moment is more of a guest-book sign-in prompt.
So, I’m here with all that I have. It’s perfect for this present moment.
And with that, I carry on.
