I meditated the other day and asked whatever Universal Awareness is out there to bring me insight. Nothing is particularly wrong with life in this present moment, but there is just a feeling of being unsettled. Like knowing that a sink-full of dishes needs to be done or that a pile of laundry has accumulated … Continue reading Growing A Garden- Cultivating the Inner Experience
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Elixirs.
Water. I'm struggling to think expansively about what I desire today. Unconditional Love feels difficult. I'm repeating old memories and I'm actually not even sure they're memories or loud thoughts that over time have taken on the status of memories. It's a bit disappointing when I'm trying to shift my Awareness towards what I desire, … Continue reading Elixirs.
Seeds.
All desires are seeds that we plant with one of two things: Deliberate awareness of what we would like to happen, or with the unexamined patterns of our day-to-day lives. Do you like where you're at and what surrounds you in this present moment? You might be! But if you're at all curious about how … Continue reading Seeds.
Fear.
I feel like there is a difference between self-preservation and fear. Fear is contemplative. It is something that you have time and space to deliberate and is a gradual slide toward dysregulation. There are very real protective mechanisms but what I'm talking about is not that... it's not an instant Fight/Flight/Freeze/Fawn system response. It's a … Continue reading Fear.
Trying.
I have been contemplating my path recently. What else is new? I have been my entire life. But lately I've been able to cut myself some slack on perpetual "trying." All my life I've been told that I'm not trying hard enough. When I have tried, I've more or less hated putting forward the effort. … Continue reading Trying.
Spring Cleaning. Again.
Oh, Spring! I am feeling the call to do all of the things again. The weather is getting nice and warm. The grass is starting to grow again. The plants are coming back. The sun is shining for longer hours. I'm ready to put the winter gear away. I know it's a mistake- it's too … Continue reading Spring Cleaning. Again.
Perfect.
There are times where I am so tired. I am weary from being afraid and feeling imperfect. I get pinned underneath the weight of my stories. It's in this place, when I get good and quiet, that I encounter a feeling... The desperation eases and I feel hope. It's a whisper, to be sure. But … Continue reading Perfect.
How Can I Best Show Up?
When you show up for something consistently, the activity becomes a comfortable place to be and space for expansion and wonder. When I was running long distances, I would get settled in my pace and I was able to ponder creative insights and solutions to all of my daily issues. Currently I have a journaling … Continue reading How Can I Best Show Up?
Aggressive.
I have a negative relationship with aggression. I don't like it. I don't find it productive in any meaningful way. It's mean, forceful, divisive and just not in line with the way I believe life can be. Nobody wants to be harassed into doing or thinking something to avoid trouble with someone who is unrelenting … Continue reading Aggressive.
Heaven on Earth.
What is your idea of heaven on Earth? Every human has their basic needs met.Every human addresses their shit- (ie- their trauma, their conditioning, their inner world, their ego, etc).Every human is connected to their awareness/soul.Every human feels and acknowledges their intuition.Every human does what lights them up.Every human has a purpose that is no … Continue reading Heaven on Earth.