That’s it. That’s the message for today. You can feel good. You can feel regulated and full of Awareness and full of the joyful calm that comes from knowing that you are an integral aspect of your Universe. The state of regulated Awareness is in contrast to Survival Ego- which is that panicky place that … Continue reading It is ok to feel peaceful.
Tag: Awareness
For Nurturers.
Heart. I am sitting wearing noise-cancelling headphones, next to the running clothes washer. I have been awake for hours, and off and on for hours before that. Waking up and meeting needs and having soothing conversations and interactions. Praying each time to show up in kindness- again and again. I feel numb- like my body … Continue reading For Nurturers.
The Yellow Door.
There was a situation yesterday with the front door of my home. I should clarify; I felt a situation yesterday with the front door that I chose to paint yellow. I was laying on the living room sofa with the windows and door open. Some men from down the street were walking their dog past … Continue reading The Yellow Door.
Honestly. Please, don’t.
A possibly unpopular boundary that I've needed to set for myself: If there is an emergency or an issue of urgency, please don’t call me first. Call who needs to be called- police for crime, fire department for fire, ambulance for a medical emergency, plumber for a leak, therapist for urgent counselling, etc. (To be … Continue reading Honestly. Please, don’t.
The Present Moment
"The Present MomentNothing missing. Nothing extra. Simultaneously nothing and everything."Twitter post 25 October 2021 I've been exploring some aspects of my Universe lately. What I've come back to over and over again is that the Present Moment is our point of entry into a life beyond our conditioned responses. Bring your awareness to where you … Continue reading The Present Moment
Trying.
I have been contemplating my path recently. What else is new? I have been my entire life. But lately I've been able to cut myself some slack on perpetual "trying." All my life I've been told that I'm not trying hard enough. When I have tried, I've more or less hated putting forward the effort. … Continue reading Trying.
Spring Cleaning. Again.
Oh, Spring! I am feeling the call to do all of the things again. The weather is getting nice and warm. The grass is starting to grow again. The plants are coming back. The sun is shining for longer hours. I'm ready to put the winter gear away. I know it's a mistake- it's too … Continue reading Spring Cleaning. Again.
Experience.
I cut my hair a while ago. Like, months ago. And I've known since it was happening that it was a mistake. It's a silly story that at my darkest moments makes me feel shame for feeling so petty and vain, but I really learned a lot from this experience. My hair was long. Longer … Continue reading Experience.
Perfect.
There are times where I am so tired. I am weary from being afraid and feeling imperfect. I get pinned underneath the weight of my stories. It's in this place, when I get good and quiet, that I encounter a feeling... The desperation eases and I feel hope. It's a whisper, to be sure. But … Continue reading Perfect.
Repair.
Kintsugi, is the Japanese art of repairing broken pottery by mending the areas of breakage with lacquer dusted or mixed with powdered gold, silver, or platinum. As a philosophy, it treats breakage and repair as part of the history of an object, rather than something to disguise.Wikipedia My mindfulness allows me to reconcile the fact that I feel broken. I can sit with this feeling … Continue reading Repair.