What I Am Doing.

What would my Highest Imaginative Self be doing at this present moment?Would she still be sleeping? Meditating? Going for a run? Doing dishes? Or laundry? Or performing a Reiki session? Driving to the mountains? Drinking water? Eating a luxurious breakfast in bed? Swimming? Wandering in nature? Sitting in the dimming light of the sunset? Sitting … Continue reading What I Am Doing.

“I’m so grateful.”

'I'm so grateful' this morning for my recognition of the fact that I often cut off my inner voice and dysregulation by thinking the bulldozing thought "I'm so grateful." It becomes a way to shift my state temporarily by smashing down any dysregulation. It becomes a way to avoid feeling or working on feeling discomfort, … Continue reading “I’m so grateful.”

For Nurturers.

Heart. I am sitting wearing noise-cancelling headphones, next to the running clothes washer. I have been awake for hours, and off and on for hours before that. Waking up and meeting needs and having soothing conversations and interactions. Praying each time to show up in kindness- again and again. I feel numb- like my body … Continue reading For Nurturers.

Honestly. Please, don’t.

A possibly unpopular boundary that I've needed to set for myself: If there is an emergency or an issue of urgency, please don’t call me first. Call who needs to be called- police for crime, fire department for fire, ambulance for a medical emergency, plumber for a leak, therapist for urgent counselling, etc. (To be … Continue reading Honestly. Please, don’t.

Spring Cleaning. Again.

Oh, Spring! I am feeling the call to do all of the things again. The weather is getting nice and warm. The grass is starting to grow again. The plants are coming back. The sun is shining for longer hours. I'm ready to put the winter gear away. I know it's a mistake- it's too … Continue reading Spring Cleaning. Again.

Repair.

Kintsugi, is the Japanese art of repairing broken pottery by mending the areas of breakage with lacquer dusted or mixed with powdered gold, silver, or platinum. As a philosophy, it treats breakage and repair as part of the history of an object, rather than something to disguise.Wikipedia My mindfulness allows me to reconcile the fact that I feel broken. I can sit with this feeling … Continue reading Repair.

Reflect.

Some of my journals stacked on the hardwood floor. The hard work of acknowledging feelings and thoughts as well as journaling my findings has allowed me to see patterns and investigate so many cycles that I was unable to process earlier in my healing/spiritual journey. My journaling has been a miracle for allowing me space … Continue reading Reflect.