I’ve been contemplating Imagination. For many reasons, Spring is when I feel drawn to explore this concept. In the past I have found this framework helpful for my situation and I would like to share it in the hopes that it might help someone else as well. Imagination from a place of Nervous System Regulation … Continue reading Spring Refresh.
Tag: Present Moment
Lottery, Trust, and Abundance.
I am experimenting with trust and abundance through a lottery ticket. I don’t often get the prompt to purchase one, but yesterday I was fueling my car and I did… and I followed through. I am scared that I won’t win. Scared? Why am I scared? 1- Because my trust may be invalidated. 2- Because … Continue reading Lottery, Trust, and Abundance.
Elixirs.
Water. I'm struggling to think expansively about what I desire today. Unconditional Love feels difficult. I'm repeating old memories and I'm actually not even sure they're memories or loud thoughts that over time have taken on the status of memories. It's a bit disappointing when I'm trying to shift my Awareness towards what I desire, … Continue reading Elixirs.
Fear.
I feel like there is a difference between self-preservation and fear. Fear is contemplative. It is something that you have time and space to deliberate and is a gradual slide toward dysregulation. There are very real protective mechanisms but what I'm talking about is not that... it's not an instant Fight/Flight/Freeze/Fawn system response. It's a … Continue reading Fear.
“I’m so grateful.”
'I'm so grateful' this morning for my recognition of the fact that I often cut off my inner voice and dysregulation by thinking the bulldozing thought "I'm so grateful." It becomes a way to shift my state temporarily by smashing down any dysregulation. It becomes a way to avoid feeling or working on feeling discomfort, … Continue reading “I’m so grateful.”
3 am.
A little light. A candle. My body loves the silence that surrounds me. The smell of the candle I chose. The taste of the drink I made. The feeling of the warm clothing I wear in the chill air. The dim and comforting light that comes from a lamp, a candle, and my dimmed screens … Continue reading 3 am.
The Fear of Showing up Imperfectly.
I know that there is so much messaging out there about making sure your work is perfectly aligned with your brand and what society is all about, but I would love to just propose that maybe we can all give ourselves the grace to show up imperfectly once in a while and see what happens. … Continue reading The Fear of Showing up Imperfectly.
It is ok to feel peaceful.
That’s it. That’s the message for today. You can feel good. You can feel regulated and full of Awareness and full of the joyful calm that comes from knowing that you are an integral aspect of your Universe. The state of regulated Awareness is in contrast to Survival Ego- which is that panicky place that … Continue reading It is ok to feel peaceful.
For Nurturers.
Heart. I am sitting wearing noise-cancelling headphones, next to the running clothes washer. I have been awake for hours, and off and on for hours before that. Waking up and meeting needs and having soothing conversations and interactions. Praying each time to show up in kindness- again and again. I feel numb- like my body … Continue reading For Nurturers.
The Yellow Door.
There was a situation yesterday with the front door of my home. I should clarify; I felt a situation yesterday with the front door that I chose to paint yellow. I was laying on the living room sofa with the windows and door open. Some men from down the street were walking their dog past … Continue reading The Yellow Door.