I’ve been wanting to create a piece of writing so profound that it inspires me to get out and reinvent my entire connection to the Universe. To choose a deliberate action and forge a path that could only be illuminated by the greater forces outside of myself. It’s not happening. The inspiration hasn’t flashed through … Continue reading Befuddlement.
Tag: Attention
Growing A Garden- Cultivating the Inner Experience
I meditated the other day and asked whatever Universal Awareness is out there to bring me insight. Nothing is particularly wrong with life in this present moment, but there is just a feeling of being unsettled. Like knowing that a sink-full of dishes needs to be done or that a pile of laundry has accumulated … Continue reading Growing A Garden- Cultivating the Inner Experience
Elements & Setting.
Where do I feel most comfortably situated? Some will never ask. How does this place, this moment, feel in my body? I find myself asking constantly. I feel the best along the shores of large bodies of water. I feel the worst next to a fire. I feel ethereal upon mountain tops. I feel crushed … Continue reading Elements & Setting.
Elixirs.
Water. I'm struggling to think expansively about what I desire today. Unconditional Love feels difficult. I'm repeating old memories and I'm actually not even sure they're memories or loud thoughts that over time have taken on the status of memories. It's a bit disappointing when I'm trying to shift my Awareness towards what I desire, … Continue reading Elixirs.
Fear.
I feel like there is a difference between self-preservation and fear. Fear is contemplative. It is something that you have time and space to deliberate and is a gradual slide toward dysregulation. There are very real protective mechanisms but what I'm talking about is not that... it's not an instant Fight/Flight/Freeze/Fawn system response. It's a … Continue reading Fear.
Changes.
September is here. School is back on. Autumn is 3 weeks away. This has always been a time of change for me. I've found myself so dysregulated lately, the last week particularly, and I have seen it as another opportunity to explore. Why am I so stressed out? My daughter is going back to school. … Continue reading Changes.
The Fear of Showing up Imperfectly.
I know that there is so much messaging out there about making sure your work is perfectly aligned with your brand and what society is all about, but I would love to just propose that maybe we can all give ourselves the grace to show up imperfectly once in a while and see what happens. … Continue reading The Fear of Showing up Imperfectly.
For Nurturers.
Heart. I am sitting wearing noise-cancelling headphones, next to the running clothes washer. I have been awake for hours, and off and on for hours before that. Waking up and meeting needs and having soothing conversations and interactions. Praying each time to show up in kindness- again and again. I feel numb- like my body … Continue reading For Nurturers.
The Yellow Door.
There was a situation yesterday with the front door of my home. I should clarify; I felt a situation yesterday with the front door that I chose to paint yellow. I was laying on the living room sofa with the windows and door open. Some men from down the street were walking their dog past … Continue reading The Yellow Door.
Honestly. Please, don’t.
A possibly unpopular boundary that I've needed to set for myself: If there is an emergency or an issue of urgency, please don’t call me first. Call who needs to be called- police for crime, fire department for fire, ambulance for a medical emergency, plumber for a leak, therapist for urgent counselling, etc. (To be … Continue reading Honestly. Please, don’t.